I just wrote... lets not talk about that...

I guess that I’m not exactly the most decisive person in the world… I take forever to make any decision. I know that this sounds normal, but it’s getting to the point where I’m questioning everything. Yesterday, I spent thirty minutes deciding if it was too late in the day to eat breakfast. When I finally decided that it wasn’t too late to eat breakfast I spent another 20 minutes deciding what to eat… then when I finally decided what to have I decided that now it was too late in the day to eat breakfast. Then I started planning lunch and by the time I had it all prepared and ready to go it was two hours later… and I made top ramen… so not exactly a ground breaking decision.

Now I’m realizing that I’m starting to double guess decisions that I’ve made in the past. I hate that. Because what is done is done, ya know? But of course not for me…. I’m just not in a complacent mood lately.

In other news… I want to plan a wedding. I mean, when I was social VP I planned all sorts of stuff, and the one thing I was looking forward to planning that I never got to, was the Valentine’s banquet. I had so much of that banquet planned, and it was going to look gorgeous, but of course none of it happened… but I was so excited for it.

I have a lot of my wedding planned already… which I’m sure it’s weird, but I do. I have the cake planned, the centerpieces, the colors… everything. I’m just not sure that it is a “guy” thing, but a lot of it isn’t my fault. Most of my plans come from my exchange to France, one of the girls on the trip was going to get married, and had brought a bunch of bridal magazines, so the other girls decided to help plan my wedding, and we got down to it… I guess most of my wedding has little quirks that are so “me”… like buttons, or pins, whatever you want to call them... one for each member of the bridal party, set on the bridal party table.

I’m excited for that….

We’re going to have ducks in my wedding. Ducks in a wagon… pulled by the ring bearer and flower girl.

And orchids.. or anemones… anemones are fricken gorgeous.