It's been about two months since my last blogpost... I feel like I'm slacking in some way. I'm not ready for this school year to start. I'm not excited for anything that will happen this year, but I'm dedicated to what I'm doing. Working for the Newspaper has started to become somewhat aggravating already, not because of the actual work, but because no one wants to talk... Being a Peer Mentor has started to become a challenge and it's only the first day of school... I'm hoping things start to look up here soon. I need to find a job. I need to start focusing. I need to unpack. I need to do so many things, but I don't even know where to start. I need focus. I need someone to hug me and tell me everything is going to be okay.

The other day I found out that a stupid person started spreading rumors about me and was using those rumors to try to get me removed from my peer mentor job... seriously, what the hell is with people and trying to take me out of positions of leadership... I apparently have to fight for everything. I hate that. Apparently working hard to be good at what you do isn't good enough but I have to battle dumb bitches the entire way... I'm too vindictive to be a good person... So far I've had to be talked down four times from doing something absolutley a-holish, more a-hole than I have ever been before... and That is saying something.

I hate this school sometimes...

and I'm alone here somehow... I don't know what I did so wrong...